Lend me your ear will you...

This post was made just to show you guys that, well.... yes I'm pretty much still alive and no I'm not trying to win award for the worst blogger ever, ( but if that award really exist I'm quite sure that I'll be nominated, hehehe).  Well, first thing to say after my long ( okay, super long...) gone, please don't get mad at me, I'm really sorry  and I'll take the blame this time, my bad, (yes you are right I don't have any excuses left to give you all...but is abducted by aliens for the second time works for you? No? ok, my bad again for trying...) Hehehe. Well I hope you don't mind lend me your ear, I got something to tell you...

For you who follow my twitter and wondering where my hijab post is, well it's still in the process, been known to have all the things perfect all my live, yes you can say it I'm a bit perfectionist, for me if it's not perfect then better not to do it at all. My tailor probably the best person who can tell you how is not easy to please me. I keep coming back and forth to fix many things and of course there also other things,  you see fabric hunting, making the designs, decide which fabric to choose (and use), calculate how many fabric that I need, looking for neat and hard working tailor and so many little things (yet frustrating) to do, isn't easy task. I repeat it isn't easy at all. Working all this out is one of reason I've been away this whole time plus I've got some project that I'm not able to share yet, but soon! I promise I will share it as soon as possible, trust me I've been work all the hours that God sends.

Since I'm kinda in a one man show now which means I'm doing it all by myself is also frustrating, but weirdly frustrating in a fun way, you might found it weird, but I like being under pressure. Yes I am weird that way hehehe.  But there's also times when everything is seems like out of my hand and everything seems goes wrong if it's not one thing it's another...   I sometimes feel I'm running out of steam. This kind of moment makes me realized how I'm still just a little kid after all, but I have a dream and I believe action speak louder than words. I don't believe you can get what you want just by dreaming and mumbo jumbo about it. I just say to myself the higher the mountain the more beautiful the view is. Giving up word is not in my book. 

"When obstacles arise, you change your direction to reach your goal,
 you do not change your decision to get there"
- Zig Ziglar

"Hard work doesn't guarantee success, but improves its chances" 
- B.J. Gupta

My dad thought me since I'm very little that in life there's so many obstacles that I must face and he also told me Rome wasn't build in a day, everything needs process and hard work. If anything I'm proud about myself is that I'm a hard worker, a really good one. I'm willing to take the extra mile, even bend over backward if I have to for everything to be perfect. I hate when someone say everything that I achieved is because I'm lucky, well in my humble opinion we make our own luck. What make it more difficult is that everything that I do is because I want to, no one asked me and no told me what to do, why is difficult? Because that means I'm my own boss and I'm also the workers so everything is up to me, that means I have to be able to control myself which is not easy. But hell yeah, I'll try my best, come hell or high water. 

"Have regulars hours for works and play, make each day both useful and pleasant, and prove that you understand the worth of time by employing it well. Then youth will be delightful, old age will bring few regrets, and life will become beautiful success."
- Louisa May Alcott

Crazy schedules is crazy! Disregard how I enjoy the process and the work is, sometimes I scream for a day of! Like several days ago when the weather is just perfect (and I think I need to make outfit post too) I decided to take a pictures that allow me to have fun at the same time, and what can be more fun than take a day off and have a picnic? And picnic all by yourself is won't as fun as with your friend right? well since it's a sudden plan and I have no friends available, I make my own friends. I always try to make a post with a story, let's just say these two are twin with different personality. One is so girly and calm while the other is more boyish and funny. Who do you like the most?

Like always a picture worth thousand words. I challenge you to make a story from this pictures hehehe... and oh by the way you will find so many of my smiling face that showing my super huge big teeth, because probably you will miss it for quite long time, because I will wear braces soon :)

Girly one
Hat : a gift :)
watch : Rolex (my sister's )
polkadot dress : EVITANUH
shoes : argyle and oxford

Boyish one
Polkadot shirt : EVITANUH
Vest : Lanvin
knitted shawl worn as turban : Nikicio
knitted pants : Nikicio